Life decision

Life.

everybody talks about life.

educated or not, people discuss about Life.

could life mean Love in few expressions?

or could it also mean Lavishness in fragrance of equity?

or just plain Luminosity in facing encumbrance?

YOU decide.

I have decided mine. My life is about:

being jubilant because everyone is beautiful when he or she is happy.

being sad when i know the tears God has given to me is to relieve me from pain.

being angry when i know the fire that burns my heart will later know the meaning of the calmness of patience.

being lively when i know one day, i can never jump up and down again or dance around when death has taken its cue.

being selfish which will cast a light on the value of sharing.

being spiteful when i know i will comprehend the preciousness of apologies.

being caring, which will warm hearts anywhere i go in this world.

being charming which will attract all the good things i need in life.

being exuberant when one day i know my exuberance will spark passion in those around me.

being strict when one day i know i have to break the rules and not feel bad about it.

being kind because that's what God has always asked us humans to be.

being strong when one day, i know this strength will be tested.

being weak when one day, i know there will be people around me who will hold me up as i slump into self pity.

being generous when one day, i know this generosity will affect the lives which are unknown to me.

and most importantly,

being myself, because God has created the originality in me when the seed where i came from was developed beautifully in the sacred place of a mother's womb.

being myself because that's who i want to be. and no one else.

The Case of the Known but Taken-for-granted Treasure

oh, there goes the ticking.

tick. tock. tick. tock.

time.

treasure in minutes. full of inexplicable essence.

yet...

we humans still do not under the value.

of the thin needle pointing on the numbers on the grandfather clock.

of the rhythmic monotonous tick tock.

of the chimes of bell as it strikes a new number.

of the wooden case of the clock, indicating how stifling time can be.

i, you, we, they,

use TIME.

i laze around when i think i have 'free' time when i conspicuously know, there are no free things in this world.

you waste your time by doing the things you are not passionate about, when you already comprehend that time will be more of value if you follow your heart's desire and do what you love to do.

we all know time is slipping away, second by second, yet, we allow it to slip from our very fingers, also acknowledging, it'll never return.

and they, who have always known, will use TIME to their benefits. and they will ensure that their friends do not fall in the same elusive trap of having lots of time.

the question remains:

have we all appreciated time as we are supposed to do?

Express yourself exuberantly.

look around.

see.

watch.

observe.

look at the eyes of eyes.

green eyes are mysterious.

grey eyes are what they call sexy.

blue eyes are innocent.

brown eyes are soft.

black eyes are full of wisdom.

but never, there will never be any other eyes as the ones I see on you.

never will i see the depth you hid from the world, only with your eyes.

is that why you have been avoiding my sharp gaze?

or is it because of the dominance of my brown eyes?

no, i do not think so.

maybe, just maybe, you just want to hide the windows of your heart,

where all your feelings are properly kept,

unreachable to those who do not earn your precious trust,

which one day, somebody will reveal the contents,

and make your eyes smile again.

and those very same eyes will shine,

this time brighter, to guide your heart,

to see and believe your deepest desires.

but until this day, your eyes are still my enigma.

the enigma i would never want to discover, unless you allow me to.

tell them.

for you, i may be just another average person.

because you never see me as a friend.

i'm not mad. i accept the fact.

but to me, you are someone.

an entity that shines the light in my life.

you, my friend, is my friend. and will always be.

when i feel down....

lately, i've been googling a lot of stuff about famous quotes or life quotes or whatsoever quotes that google can provide me to fill my thirst of motivation. usually, i read my friends' blogs for inspirations and motivation.

many things happened lately: my worries about my universities (one by one, my friends are getting response while my emails to the unis have no such feedbacks), disappointments, overwhelming anger, or simply frustrations.

i've deactivated my FB, and kept silent for three days from the world.even my sisters were quite worried. i buried my nose in my beloved novels and did Google mapping. before this, due to a panic attack, i washed all the cars in my house and even waxed them. :) and i figured out that what i always tend to do when i've lost my self esteem or feeling low, i turn to these quotes for my motivation.

i may sound kiasu or just plain nerd to Google all these stuff but never mind. at least, i know what i'm doing is good. :)

here are a few quotes that i think are just plain awesome. :)

every girl should use what Mother Nature gave her before Father Time takes it away.

to wish you were someone else is to waste the person who you really are.

experience is a name humans use for their mistakes.

oh yeah, fortunately the girls are braver than the boys, they flirt all the time. :) (gwen stefani)

they may forget what you said but they'll never forget how you made them feel.

some of my friends said that i'm too complicated. because i think too much. or always being too sensitive. well, i'm just being me. and no matter how difficult it is, we should always open our minds and accept people just the way they are. with my fast temper and volatile patience, i take a long time to understand this concept. but still, i know i will have to because humans are not perfect no matter what hubris they have created to make us all feel good about ourselves. that's why God has reminded us to learn.

and i've learned that motivation come in many ways. you just have to know where to find it. :)

Anger. Patience.

how miserable anger is.

today, i felt it.

that fire. that sickening burning sensation which eats the pathways of your heart in a slow deliberate way.

how strong patience is.

that water. soothes you. that strong current which stops the fire from marching forward. :)

i experienced both today.

i was angered and calmed simultaneously.

and for that, i'm glad.

because:

i know that i have the strength to stop anger.

i have patience.

here i am.

here i am, creating a new post for my blog when i know my computing notes are practically shouting at me to be read and my QA questions are just nagging my brain cells to work on them and my accounts past year questions beg me to revise them again.

final exams are looming up.

and i realized there are still a lot of stuff i need to settle.

this is what happens when you keep postponing stuff. :) procrastinating is just doing no good for you in this rush hour circumstances.

however, THAT'S NOT AN EXCUSE TO GIVE UP. fight till the end. :)

and here's a huge reminder from my dear sir jo whom i met this evening, STUDY SMART, NOT HARD. :)

with that, i know i've been doing the right thing to prepare myself with a steady step to the examinations hall. :)